It's been awhile since the last blog of mine here. As I said in my previous blog, I plan to have things goes on naturally and on it's way. However, things always goes complicated for me. My own feeling is playing tricks with myself.
There is a guy named Thomas that I knew him that time, he was saying that he is not into relationship that kind of guy. Then I get to know him more and I did spent 2 nights sleeping with him. It just sleep only and nothing else. But that was just a phase again. Actually I didn't enjoy it. I guess I notice I don't love him. No doubt that he is kinda fit and dark, but a slightly shorter than me. Maybe he lack of some attractiveness that I'm wanting. He kinda want me to be his lover not not boyfriend. He is kinda complicated, maybe is he a businessman and kinda workaholic. Guess that is why he turns me off. Anyway, he rarely contact me also. So mind it.
Who else I can talk about? Noel already have a boyfriend, Jetky also didn't contact me almost a month and Michael also another one that I guess I can throw him out of the list. Kelvin, the guy from South Korea is coming back this September wanna meet me. But then I told him that he and me have no chance to be together. No feel and the distance makes it impossible. Guess that's almost all of them.
Anyway, kinda hard to say get out of complication also. Like the guy that I knew last month, named Douglas. He seems really nice guy. I think I do have some feel on him. NO point lying to self. But I think I gotta stop that. He already have a boyfriend. But then feeling is kinda hard to control. I mean, how to resist such a charming like him. Well, he isn't that gorgeous looking, but he kinda fit (not very but quite), smart (I like smart guy), decisive, sweet, sensative and a little sense of homour. He always treats me (at least 2 times already) like we have lunch in Delicious, Mid Valley before, and Bubba Gump Shrimp Co. in The Curve. Tomorrow, he is going to pick me up to clubbing and he is paying for me the entrance fee. It makes me feel he is super sweet. I mean if he is my boyfriend, then understandable yet sweet. But as I'm not his boyfriend and he already treat me so well. OMG. I don't know what to say.
Sometimes I doubt that he have time for his boyfriend. Like recently, We went to gym together at The Curve on Tuesday evening, then today, we meet for gym and lunch, and tomorrow, he is going to pick me up for clubbing. This week alone, we meet 3 times. I wonder his boyfriend will be jealous or not. Sometimes makes me think that he don't have one. But better think he have one as he told me that he have. I don't want to be embarass later and I don't hope anything complicated to be happening. If he don't have a boyfriend, hell yeah I'll fall for him. OMG, he is really sweet. I think I'm kinda likes him already. Don't worry, I'll control myself. God bless me.
Tomorrow is my convocation day. So I better stay focus on tomorrow and leave all this behind first. Muaks..
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