Three words that he typed in MSN today, although I didn't hear him saying it, but it seems to be meaning it, "I love you" these three words that makes me felt it's worth my love of loving a guy that I really love even though he is attached already.
If he can separate this words into two (because he mentioned, "I loves both of you"), that will be better. The fact he is loving both of us is undeniable, but then I do hope he can say is as "I love you". Who doesn't want to have a boyfriend to himself only? Most bottoms does, even his boyfriend right now (I guess). But then only this time, I don't want to care he is choosing who, even thought he chooses him only or both of us. Of course, if he chooses him only, I have no choice but to leave.
Right now, I just hope that I can enjoy every moment that he can spent with me happily. That's just a simple hope and request that I want from him. He might need to spent more time for his boyfriend (although I hope he can spent more with me instead) but as long as he can spare enough time for me, I'll be glad.
Actually I'm kinda phobic with open relationship last time. But don't know why lately I'm thinking about this issue. Am I considered in an open relationship? He have a boyfriend, and I'm his lover too. I have a ridiculous thought earlier but then just drop it. I was thinking if his boyfriend doesn't mind sharing him with me, he might be like three of us together. Of course, Douglas seems to be having more advantage (having two persons that he loves at the same time but we are sharing him). Of course, he don't add anymore inside of else I have no idea what I want to do anymore. But this is just a thought and I think it wouldn't be happening too. LOL.
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