It's been heaven and hell this Christmas for me. I have no idea is it bad or good for me but it's really something that not up to my expectation. Maybe I want something more and something less at the same time. It's not as simple as I can think of for myself. I do feel a little upset.
Christmas eve was great. I did hang out with Charles and some girls from Charles' university course mates. Eaten at Delicious, Jalan Tun Razak, grab some beer at Library and I did get a free membership there. Next time maybe can hang out there. It's kinda crazy that night as we ran up all the way to Quattro, Avenue K and found out that we don't like it before turning ourselves to Library, Mid Valley.
Christmas day was pretty simple. Just hang out with my sisters to have some desserts, catch up a movie (a pretty lame Chinese movie) and walk around Tropicana City Mall, which happens to be easier to get a parking space. Mid Valley, One Utama, The Curve, Ikano, Sunway Pyramid, those major large malls are hard enough to get a parking space.
As for today, it's kinda up and down. I did enjoy the potluck I had with my ballroom dance mates. We dressed up nicely despite I forgot to get a mask or Christmas hat along with me. It was fun but it ends early. I've nothing to do after that and just home alone the rest of the day.
To make my day worst, my brother wants to borrow my car again. I hate it because my car now is super dirty, especially the seats. All thanks to him. Another thing I don't like about the whole idea of him using my car is he don't pump petrol back. It's irritating but I can't do anything about it.
The rest of the days that I didn't mention, I wasn't too bad or too great. Well, I did take my family (including my aunt and cousins) hangout, e.g. Look Up Point at Ampang, walk around malls, food, etc. That's why I'm broke (inclusive or fixing my damn car air cond). I still need to buy new clothes and shoes for new year. I wonder where will get the cash to pay back my credit card debts then..
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
Christmas Frustration
Christmas is around the corner. I felt so sad and lonely about it. I do have my family there for me. But since Christmas is on the Saturday, there will be nothing special I can do. My family don't celebrate Christmas. So somehow, it just another lonely yet boring Christmas I'll be going through.
My friends, moat of them will be celebrating this special day with loved ones, or a bunch of friends going clubbing or even drink at some bar or coffee house. Unless I found such friend in that day to spend time with me on a coffee house, or else it just another boring year for me. But I doubt people will wanna go coffee house instead of club.
Anyway, it just a miserable Christmas month I'm having right now. I'm kinda like a Santa right now. Since my aunt from Singapore and her children had came here for vacation, which means out of hospitality, I'll need to take them around. Petrol, car park, and minor expenditure like food (not always), games, movie, etc. I'll have to bear. Well, I've allocate that I'll be spending almost RM300 to RM400 for them already. However, things always mess up with me.
My car's air cond giving me problem. I sent it to my brother workshop today to fix it. It seems to be problem with the host or something and cost me RM380. So now, I'm super broke. I'm going to use my credit card in advance. Kinda like using those money in advance and wait till my January's salary is out to pay back. I don't know whether I manage to save enough to start paying my study loan early next year or not now.
Miserable time. I'm in a bad situation right now. No one around to spend special day with, financial crisis again, lack of motivation to stand up firm to deal work related issues. I hope I'll get through this year and pray hard next year, this won't repeat again. I can't imagine how am
I going through this Chinese New Year which is in a month plus time.
My friends, moat of them will be celebrating this special day with loved ones, or a bunch of friends going clubbing or even drink at some bar or coffee house. Unless I found such friend in that day to spend time with me on a coffee house, or else it just another boring year for me. But I doubt people will wanna go coffee house instead of club.
Anyway, it just a miserable Christmas month I'm having right now. I'm kinda like a Santa right now. Since my aunt from Singapore and her children had came here for vacation, which means out of hospitality, I'll need to take them around. Petrol, car park, and minor expenditure like food (not always), games, movie, etc. I'll have to bear. Well, I've allocate that I'll be spending almost RM300 to RM400 for them already. However, things always mess up with me.
My car's air cond giving me problem. I sent it to my brother workshop today to fix it. It seems to be problem with the host or something and cost me RM380. So now, I'm super broke. I'm going to use my credit card in advance. Kinda like using those money in advance and wait till my January's salary is out to pay back. I don't know whether I manage to save enough to start paying my study loan early next year or not now.
Miserable time. I'm in a bad situation right now. No one around to spend special day with, financial crisis again, lack of motivation to stand up firm to deal work related issues. I hope I'll get through this year and pray hard next year, this won't repeat again. I can't imagine how am
I going through this Chinese New Year which is in a month plus time.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Merry Frustration & Christmas
It's so frustrated lately.. Things doesn't seems to go the way I'm hoping to.. Work stress overload and yet I just felt that there is a gap between he and me.. Maybe it's my problem.. I've been thinking a lot lately.. When he is leaving for vacation, I think things will be getting more complicated for me..
Lately, I already feel that he is not spending much time with me already.. He might think that he spent lots of time with me but let's think of it, I'm not around the office for some time too.. Further more, time in the office also he is not really around there for me.. He will be busy with work or meeting..
Despite feeling lonely and frustrated with him, work load and the stress derieve from the production team, a constant issue with them makes life more miserable.. No point we work so hard or even looking forward for great sales if the back there not helping us.. Even the HK order also not yet done.. Headache..
Lately, I already feel that he is not spending much time with me already.. He might think that he spent lots of time with me but let's think of it, I'm not around the office for some time too.. Further more, time in the office also he is not really around there for me.. He will be busy with work or meeting..
Despite feeling lonely and frustrated with him, work load and the stress derieve from the production team, a constant issue with them makes life more miserable.. No point we work so hard or even looking forward for great sales if the back there not helping us.. Even the HK order also not yet done.. Headache..
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