I'm wondering what should I do. Lately, there are two guys trying to flirt with me and even wanted to date me. Recalling the promise, I should be going out for them and not stopping myself from getting in love if I have the chance. I'm wondering what is Douglas thought for this. Will he be hoping that I'll have a good relationship with one of them if they are good?
Well, I'm considering one of them. The other one I'm kinda not care most because he is a smoker. It's hard for me to even think to be with such person for long term relationship. Whereas this guy is much better. I know him through my friend. My friend's friend hard sell him a lot. Even my friend or my godbrother. LoL.
I'm wondering whether should I be trying out with this guy. Will it affect my friendship with Douglas? I know Douglas care me a lot. I'm worry he will not care me as friend anymore if I'm dating with this guy.
Well, if I'm really dating this guy, then there will be some changes my life. I might need to spent some time with him. It might be no so appropriate on certain things that we used to do always. Will Douglas still treat me good as always? Will it affect me at work?
I'm so confused at this moment and I hope I can get the answer. Douglas has been my angel and guided me a lot through my troubles and down time. He will always be my angel and guiding star. I don't want to lose this bestest friend I ever had. Should I take this chance to date a new guy? Chances not always in front of me if compare to Bryan. Lord, please guide me through this matter. Amen..
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
I'm Fasting Today
Well, I'm not actually fasting but just don't feel like going out. Sherman did ask me to go out for lunch but I'm no longer feeling hungry although I'm feeling like eating something. Maybe my hunger is over after the meeting. I can actual hear my stomach making all sort of noise in the meeting room earlier.
Then when Jia Yee going for lunch, I felt like blotted somehow. Maybe I ate some chocolate after coming out from the meeting room. Then chatted with Bryan a little bit. I don't know why I felt a little bit emotional, perhaps I'm not feeling so well. A little headache. Maybe I didn't sleep well last night.
I was thinking to get some take away food from McDonald's or perhaps even eat at PappaRich. At least it's air-conditioned so I wouldn't melt and getting more emotional. However, I lost the feeling of driving out for lunch. Thinking of there are chocolates and biscuit that Douglas given me, I just feel like staying indoor and save money.
It simply means now, I'm fasting for lunch. Maybe that can save me some cash. LoL. Anyway, I'm thinking to spent short time wig him to celebrate his birthday inadvance since he will not be free on his actual birthday. But I have to leave early and can't really be there for him for a longe rperiod of time. I'm thinking to skip RPM if we could. If cant then only I'll decide what to do next.
Anyway, since he reads my blog kind of often, I'll take this chance to wish him happy birthday. May you have a bless birthday and all your dreams come true. Hope the department runs smooth and business will be good so that all our troubles will be gone.
Then when Jia Yee going for lunch, I felt like blotted somehow. Maybe I ate some chocolate after coming out from the meeting room. Then chatted with Bryan a little bit. I don't know why I felt a little bit emotional, perhaps I'm not feeling so well. A little headache. Maybe I didn't sleep well last night.
I was thinking to get some take away food from McDonald's or perhaps even eat at PappaRich. At least it's air-conditioned so I wouldn't melt and getting more emotional. However, I lost the feeling of driving out for lunch. Thinking of there are chocolates and biscuit that Douglas given me, I just feel like staying indoor and save money.
It simply means now, I'm fasting for lunch. Maybe that can save me some cash. LoL. Anyway, I'm thinking to spent short time wig him to celebrate his birthday inadvance since he will not be free on his actual birthday. But I have to leave early and can't really be there for him for a longe rperiod of time. I'm thinking to skip RPM if we could. If cant then only I'll decide what to do next.
Anyway, since he reads my blog kind of often, I'll take this chance to wish him happy birthday. May you have a bless birthday and all your dreams come true. Hope the department runs smooth and business will be good so that all our troubles will be gone.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
I Felt Lost..
I'm not sure myself why am I feeling so lost.. Possible after what I've experience yesterday, I'm feeling that I'm not firm enough to even make someone listen to me.. Or perhaps I'm having this problem myself only. Perhaps I'm being anal or small little thing.
Just a week he is here, I'm feeling like I have no stabbed in the department soon if hat is how an intern going to treat me. Well, I'm cool with him having his own idea and own set of thinking but not that bitchy to me at least. I think I miss the time we are with Bryan. At least he will not make me feel like he is trying to be an asshole.. Oops.. I'm being bad to use such a word..
I'm trying to save the ink for the company stamp but he is stamping it here and there. I've told him not to but he never listen to me. Douglas asked me to boss him around, I don't even think that will be possible. He is so smart that only do what that Douglas or Shaun asks him to do but me. Ive to drag or beg him for it.
The worst is that an intern order me to get him water or fill up his bottle. Not even Bryan did that to me. Bryan only at times ask me to help him when I'm going to the pantry, not ordering me. If like he falls ill, I don't mind offer him to fill up his bottle but not he as an intern ordering from me. He even just pass the sales order to Shaun thinking that he is going to production, whereas I think Shaun is just being nice to show him to the respective person to hand the document to.
Maybe I'm prejudise to him, but he done so far didn't make me feel I'm wrong about him. He is really smart, but somehow, I'm not going along too well with his guy. If this is how he is going to treat me for the whole term of him in the company, I don't know how should I cope with him.
I still can picture how he looks like when he ordered me to fill up his bottle telling that he has stuff to do. As if I don't have any. Then Douglas asked him to get hit water for his green tea, he when for it. I asked him to help to fill mine along since he is going to pantry, he just ignore me. I just I'm losing my place.
It was my childish thought for a moment that I wanted to resign if this intern is climbing over my head already even just a week he is here.. But that doesn't solve my problem. Anyway, he doesn't worth for me to lose a job. I think I have to be fake with him, pretending nothing gies wrong and bare all the irritation.
Just a week he is here, I'm feeling like I have no stabbed in the department soon if hat is how an intern going to treat me. Well, I'm cool with him having his own idea and own set of thinking but not that bitchy to me at least. I think I miss the time we are with Bryan. At least he will not make me feel like he is trying to be an asshole.. Oops.. I'm being bad to use such a word..
I'm trying to save the ink for the company stamp but he is stamping it here and there. I've told him not to but he never listen to me. Douglas asked me to boss him around, I don't even think that will be possible. He is so smart that only do what that Douglas or Shaun asks him to do but me. Ive to drag or beg him for it.
The worst is that an intern order me to get him water or fill up his bottle. Not even Bryan did that to me. Bryan only at times ask me to help him when I'm going to the pantry, not ordering me. If like he falls ill, I don't mind offer him to fill up his bottle but not he as an intern ordering from me. He even just pass the sales order to Shaun thinking that he is going to production, whereas I think Shaun is just being nice to show him to the respective person to hand the document to.
Maybe I'm prejudise to him, but he done so far didn't make me feel I'm wrong about him. He is really smart, but somehow, I'm not going along too well with his guy. If this is how he is going to treat me for the whole term of him in the company, I don't know how should I cope with him.
I still can picture how he looks like when he ordered me to fill up his bottle telling that he has stuff to do. As if I don't have any. Then Douglas asked him to get hit water for his green tea, he when for it. I asked him to help to fill mine along since he is going to pantry, he just ignore me. I just I'm losing my place.
It was my childish thought for a moment that I wanted to resign if this intern is climbing over my head already even just a week he is here.. But that doesn't solve my problem. Anyway, he doesn't worth for me to lose a job. I think I have to be fake with him, pretending nothing gies wrong and bare all the irritation.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
New Intern
New intern come in today. Well, he is a very fast learner and yet possible he is very talented in many ways. I guess he will have a bright future in the field he is currently in, which is business or business related, such as marketing or sales.
Somehow, I feel glad that Douglas have someone which might be capable enough to help him in many ways in the department. His English is good. Speaking wise, he is fluent in many dialects as well. Having someone that have multitasking ability is good.
However, this makes me feel like I'm no longer that important in the department. Basically, I'm like nothing can be compete with an intern. Am I embarrass of myself? Am I even competent at all in the company? I feel like I can be replace anytime soon.
I don't know whether is it only me being sensative or prejudise or whatever you can name it, I felt not secure or comfortable with the new guy. Maybe it's a shock to me, or I'm afraid that he is much better than me, I don't seems having chance or purpose to be in the company anymore. Maybe I'm worried I'll be replace by him in near future.
Even throw out my fear, perhaps my prejudise towards him, I just felt that I will need to be careful with him. I just have the intuition that I wouldn't be too safe with this guy compare to Bryan. At least Bryan is direct and he is still nice person after all. Maybe this new guy is good too but I'm just being a jerk, thinking bad about him.
Somehow, I feel glad that Douglas have someone which might be capable enough to help him in many ways in the department. His English is good. Speaking wise, he is fluent in many dialects as well. Having someone that have multitasking ability is good.
However, this makes me feel like I'm no longer that important in the department. Basically, I'm like nothing can be compete with an intern. Am I embarrass of myself? Am I even competent at all in the company? I feel like I can be replace anytime soon.
I don't know whether is it only me being sensative or prejudise or whatever you can name it, I felt not secure or comfortable with the new guy. Maybe it's a shock to me, or I'm afraid that he is much better than me, I don't seems having chance or purpose to be in the company anymore. Maybe I'm worried I'll be replace by him in near future.
Even throw out my fear, perhaps my prejudise towards him, I just felt that I will need to be careful with him. I just have the intuition that I wouldn't be too safe with this guy compare to Bryan. At least Bryan is direct and he is still nice person after all. Maybe this new guy is good too but I'm just being a jerk, thinking bad about him.
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