Today Keith added me in Facebook. It's either he got the link from Douglas profile or he just search my name on it. I did approved him as friend and then he added me in MSN too. He did try to chat with me. I'm kinda nervous but then pretended well to be so innocent which makes me really uneasy. I worry I say anything wrong or bad.
He did asked me how is my day. Well, it's just the same except today I drove my sister to have a hair cut in a saloon and get some hair treatment (which we already paid the money - since we took the treatment package previously). The worst thing was my car got block by a idiot person's car and I can't get moving for an hour. I did pressed horn for more than half an hour but then nobody is coming to rescue me or even drive away that car. He left no note like number so that I can call him if he is blocking my way. I was thinking that he is not coming back soon so I went to stationary shop to get some wrappers then he is gone.
Keith did mention that he is going to have a movie with Douglas later in the evening. Actually I'm kinda envy him. I have not had a movie with him before. All I can recall doing with him are workout together in Fitness First, lunch or dinner (either with him only or with his boyfriend together regardless of the venue), shopping for his stuff, clubbing in Maison and some time spent in my room. I just realise that we did nothing much special stuff or romantic stuff together.
So chatting with him today makes me feel a bit uneasy too. Mix feeling of worry, scare, envy or maybe worst - jealousy, fun, etc. chatting with him. It's really not an easy thing to be a thrid party in somebody's relationship. I felt like I'm hurting everyone, feeling myself like a bitch. All I hope is that Douglas is happy only. The person I want not to get hurt or at least hurt as minimum as possible.
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