Another Dinner With Him and His Boyfriend

I just had a dinner with him and his boyfriend at Delicious, Mid Valley a few hours back. I had order a smoke salmon salad, which he helps me to pick and a lemon lime bitter for drink. They both ordered spaghetti. I purposely don't want to order spaghetti because I know it's gonna be the same thing and kinda odd. Well, I don't have much appetite to eat in that situation too.

After the dinner, we went Starbucks for a drink. Well, as usual I will get a Mocha. We sat there and chit chatted for another half an hour I guess. I kinda chat with Keith kinda much to change my focus on him. It was not an easy evening but at least this time, I'm much more prepared for it.

Tomorrow, he will he having a movie with Keith. I know he would not have much time for me so I never plan to ask him to catch a movie with me. Worry the time he can spent with me will be lesser. So I was thinking to watch the movie "Up" with my pet brother at first. However, he can't make it as lately he is kinda busy. Not to mention "District 9", "I Love You Beth Cooper", "Ghost of Girlfriend's Past" and "The Proposal". So much movies I wanna watch but then nobody to watch with me. Not to mention I'm running out of cash.

So all I can do now is to forget about it. Perhaps not to watch any of it (no money, what can I watch? LOL), and just stay at home doing nothing. Today is Wednesday, and I think I will have to wait for another 3 more days to have some time to spent with him. Hopefully I do have. If like last week again, he is busy with some sort of thing, then I will be alone again. I know the feeling sucks and even more worst if he is taking those trouble to see me. I don't want him to feel stress because of me. I felt sad too if he take too much trouble just to spent time with me (even though I will still sad if he can't spent time with me). Sometimes, I wish that he never likes me, perhaps he would not suffer. But I do want him to like me too. So contradicting. LOL.