My Head Is Spinning

This morning have no idea why my head are spinning like crazy. Feeling so dizzy and I almost wanna puke but nothing comes out. I felt so bad that I have to skip the class this morning. I thought that I might not see him as he has to get back to his office after the class as I thought of. However, we managed to have lunch together as the vertigo feeling gets better.

I did when to the clinic to seek medical advise from doctor before going out to meet him. Anyway, he did spent quite some time with me after the lunch. At least we went to get our ice cream before we hit to the car park to get our car and leave.

I took my medication once I reached home. Frankly speaking, my head still spinning even till now. I can't take nap at home. Well, Charles is around. I guess I can't be sleeping right. But it's not him that cause me not taking my nap but I'm just not sleepy. I have no idea is it the medication have no effect or not effective enough because I'm still not getting much better.

What I am worrying now is whether I'm able to drive to help him out later or not. Deep down, I really wanted to help him so much, I wanted to be part of him in anything that he is doing. Well, I don't know how much I can help and how much more I can be part of him and for how long, what matters is how much effort I'm putting it for him. However, this nausea feeling I'm having and the dizziness are extremely frustrating me.

I hate to turn him down because I worry that he will not be pleased. But nothing beats the feeling of how I hate to miss the chance to see him for a bit more, to be with him a little bit more, to be there to support him a little bit more and to hug and kiss him for a little more if I could. Hopefully I can be better after half and hour or so. I hope I don't miss everything that he is doing. I felt I'm useless right now.