Lonely

I have no idea why today I feel a bit lonely. Maybe I should put it this way, I do feel lonely most of the time but then I was not so bad or I barely thinking about it. However today, I felt slightly more lonely from afternoon till now.

This morning, I went to Fitness First to work out. I did biceps and abs today. Then after work out, I did went for "so call gathering" singing karaoke session with my old secondary mates in Redbox, IOI Mall. One of them is going to Germany next week for study, so this might be the last outing. It's hard for me to say "NO" to them, so I went for it and luckily it's just RM10++.

So I gotta be taking care of my expenses more carefully, maybe save here and there. LOL. So basically, today after my work out session and the singing session, I spend RM13++ (including the parking fee). The rest of the time, I'm home except for consultation of my migraine which cost me RM50.

The more I wanted to save, the worst it become at times for me. No idea is it some kind of curse of me or what. LOL. Anyway, I just felt lonely maybe because I felt I'm all alone when I'm not feeling so well. I do not know who to call to, who to talk to, or is there anyone there to take care of me (exclude my mother please, I do not mean family kinda care).

It just some kinda feeling that I am having. Maybe I miss the feeling of being pamper and care by a boyfriend or lover when I need him. Maybe I also miss the feeling of me playing to get attention and to pampered my love ones. Listening to song alone at my own room with my candles lighted, salt lamp and some dim light on, romantic setting, comfortable bed, only thing lack is a perfect man laying by my side. LOL.