Today might be the best evening I had in this week. After driving my mother to my aunt's cafe to have brunch, and later to my grandmother's place, I drove back home with my sister and brother after dropping my cousin at The Gardens. Then I just wait for the time for my brother to get back home later after he brought his stuff and I'll be meeting Dougie.
I met him up at The Gardens and today is a perfect for me to be 'dating' or having some personal time with him alone after so long. It's really amazing for me. We went to Starbucks before going for out dinner at DELIcious, one of Dougie's all time favourite place. Well, no matter where he chooses, I never complains as eating with him is the best thing.
I had a great evening, spending my quality time with him. I can talk to him almost anything without worrying Keith is around. Maybe the only thing I care is I speak something bad which complicating the situation I am in.
I know Dougie had a hard time too trying to make me happy at the same time or focusing on his work and sparing his time for his boyfriend. That's why I never complain to him of him not spending enough time for me or what. All I wanted is he got all his happiness he wanted and meanwhile, I can share his happiness.
He actually is a good man. He does really show me that he cares for me, not like my ex-boyfriend, Bryan, which I personally think that he is a jerk. I don't want to mention him here. I know he always wanted me to settle with or find a decent man to be with rather to be clinging with him which does not benefits me. He don't want to be unfair for me. I know it.
I will try to find someone decent. Meanwhile, before that I found this man, I just hope that I can love the man I truly love currently, not demanding for him to be with me or give me any special status.
Somehow I felt in the corner of my heart, I'm so lucky to meet him. I do feel that he changes my world a lot, broaden my thought and open my heart to many different things. What's more is I feel that this very man will be always in my heart, my memory and even in the future, he will be there for me somehow or rather. I hope, no matter what, no matter what status we will turn out to be, we will still there for each other.
And here, I want to thank you for helping me up in my financial. It's like the most luckiest thing that is happening to me besides all the unlucky moments I'm having so far. Well, I'm always not that lucky but then I appreciate what I've learned throughout all these moments that I have gone through. I really appreciate all those people that help me go through all this bad time.
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