When is This Fairy Tales End? - Part 1

This might be one of the longest post I'll will be writing. I'll probably need to write all on a few posts to illustrate it out. It's almost like a story of fairy comes true, but need to wake up when the time is up.

I hope that my boyfriend will be open minded enough on this issue if he ever read this. Having the privileged of being his boyfriend or started up a relationship with him is something I wasn't expected from the beginning. Well, I'm more like a friend and a sex buddy that time.

As time goes and since he is finally single, I'm the one that initiate this relationship. More like I'm the one that kick start this. He isn't the one that wanting the relationship to grow to the next level at the beginning as he don't think he is ready for it.

Cut the long story short, we finally attached. It's not the starting up this relationship that troubles me a lot but how to maintain it. Having this relationship with him is like the fairy tales. I bumped to this 'Prince Charming' and finally he wanted to be with me.

When he took the vow to the Lord to be a good Christian, he become a better boyfriend too. All thing seems to be better but that is also the worst at the same time. He is a better boyfriend, it's harder for me to let him go from my life. It's like a bond between us.

However, fairy tales is fairy tales. I've to wake up once this fairy tale ended. How come it will end? Because he will be highly possible going to get married and have kids. Do you think I can be the one standing in between his marriage? What pressure will I have to face his family, his friends, and our church member? It's a tough call.

How come this issue rises? Just one open house at his house kick start me to think about the future I'll have with him. I do think about, why God give me this relationship where I can't see the future with him and what I can see ahead now is he will have to leave me. He can't even guarantee that he won't leave me. So, it's like high possibility he will for the sake of his family. Just like stated in the bible, honouring your parents.