Jealousy

I never felt so bad for quite some time after officially on relationship with my boyfriend. The last time I recall that I'm really jealous is during the time when he wanted to go to sauna with his friends and he did something more than just enjoying sauna.

This time I never expect to jealous on a new hired colleague that haven't even officially commence into the company. My boyfriend treated him super great like as if I'm the second priority, at least that's how I'm feeling.

When I first hired into his company, I was only get to know the company by asking around people, been shown around by HR, and get to know more about my role after 3 weeks in the company. He wasn't even there to guide me until later about a month I'm in the company.

This Mr. Alvin seems to be either so privileged or something special in him that my boyfriend interviewed him at Starbucks during public holiday and buy him drinks. I've to travel all the way to The Curve for his interview. When I say I'm bored after the interview, he actually ask me to go home and rest.

Today, he even ask me to prepare his uniform, tour him around the factory before he even commenced in the company, and even plan where he should be seated when he commenced. The best part is that he even planned about including him to the US business trip and exclude me.

I don't know whether my boyfriend is insensitive or perhaps never understand about how I'll feel when he doesn't seem to prioritise me or discuss with me in advance. It makes me feel like I'm servicing the new guy. Then why tell me that he wants to promote me? Mind as well as me to work under him.

It's quite sad to feel like I'm just the second important person when I've work so hard for him and I'm not even seems important than the new guy. He never treat the other ex-colleagues so good before but this one. I don't care what he thinks. I'm seriously not happy on his action.

I'm actually feeling that he becomes closer when further from me at the same time. I used to feel that I don't own him but I have him. Now is like I own him as boyfriend but I lose him somewhere. I feel like he priority others people or things more than me at some point.

Maybe I think I'm not suitable to work with him together because conflict will occur at some point. I think it's going to built up soon. Anyway, I don't think that the company and him himself need me so much already. I'm actually a disposable asset. I shall really consider my exit strategy like he mentioned to me. Maybe it's a hint from the Lord from his mouth.