As we had our dinner already, we decided to walk around. As usual, he will target for his bubble tea and I will get mine. As we bought the bubble tea and walk around at about 9.00m, we coincidentally saw his friend who also called Terence (let's make it in short, TN). And guess what, we were standing there talking to this friend till 10.10pm.
I was thinking in my head at that time, this week, Monday he was busy, Tuesday we went to church service together but I don't think that is so much of a personal time for each other, Wednesday I was with my friend Charles, Thursday he was busy and today finally we have so time together and we basically standing there catching up with a friend.
It's not a bad thing as in he should catch up with his friend but then I feel uneasy. Things that they say are fine except a couple of things that stir my emotion. I know it will be so sensitive to talk about company issue too deep with his friend and it's also make it sound like our company really in deep shit.
So what I'm unhappy about was that he mentioned about moving into his new apartment, and he was saying that he wanted to throw a party when his folks is not around. He mentioned that he will invite TN for the party, then after a few seconds only he mentioned to invite me along. It makes me feel like the party is for his friend, or perhaps his friend is more important to invite before me.
He added to his friend whether try sitting in his new car. I know he has a nice car, but then why suddenly offer them to sit at your car if there is no need for it. Is it purposely to show a bit as a ego thingy or something else that I don't hope to be like he is having a slight feeling for someone else.
Third issue that I can think of that makes me uneasy was he asked TN three times indirectly, and directly about his ex-boyfriend. Whether about his work or his life. He did even mentioned to TN to promote him since TN is his ex-boyfriend's manager. I mean that does make me a little bit jealous as my boyfriend is very much still care about his ex-boyfriend in front of me. I just need him to make me feel that he cares for me more than his ex-boyfriend. It's the quality, not the quantity that counts.
All this is not to say that I'm angry at him or what. It just a bit disappointed when your own boyfriend doesn't seems to be caring you more than other people out there. I don't mean he doesn't but it feels that way. First, invite friends over for party and remember you last, then inviting a single friend over for a car ride and lastly, asking about his ex-boyfriend in front of me without easing my feeling.
I'm just emotional over this minor issues I know. Just couldn't help it to be not pleased with such things. I expect more of him but come out less. After tonight, I will probably able to see him only on next week Tuesday, then follow by Sunday if I'm lucky or else the following week. I feel like I know very little of his schedule and I don't know how to plan my time for him.
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