This question keeps on pop up in my mind. I'm in doubt whether I can do it or not. I mean can i cope with this job? I felt somehow I'm floating here and there. Am I just too blind to see whether I'm able to cope with this job or not? Can I really perform and climb the ladder to some good position? I wonder I can make it or not.
I don't what people say that I'm using the connection to climb the ladder or stuff. I worried that it will affect my work and the time being in the company. I don't want the awkward feeling or stuff. I just don't know how to put it in words right now. I just felt somehow it's not that right.
For example, today few of us chit chatting a little bit. Somehow we talk about the issue regarding our company benefits and stuff. They felt that my previous employment's benefit is way better than in the current company, why am I here? The pay I guess. But somehow, the benefits is not like what I have been expected. It is somehow different from what I expect when Douglas told me about it.
Althought we can claim for the toll, parking and petrol when we are required to drive to else place on out of office basis, but I found out it's very troublesome and it's totally not environmental friendly. Everything is on paper, printed. Isn't it waste of paper and cutting more tree? Can the IT personel do something about it? Our company ICT really not up to date.
Anyway, feeling bad about the benefit that we had and not having it does not change anything. I think he also can change anything much. I just feel somehow not standardize and not fair for the office staff to be treated equally with foreign workers. I don't think it's fair at all. Even HR told me that working on Saturday is to make it fair to the production team, I find it not making sense.
Imagine this, Saturday for the production team to produce stuff is OK. But then for us the office personel, what can we do there on Saturday? Nothing much as I can think of. Ain't we going green? So why are we working on Saturday which utilise more electricity and leave more carbon footprint? I find that our HR is not really helping the staff but making my life miserable somehow.
I guess if Douglas read this, he is going to kill me. I'm talking bad about his company so much. Well, some of what I mentioned here ain't merely my voice but the other as well. Maybe they don't dare to voice it out. Anyway, this is my blog afterall. I'm consider considerate as I didn't mention this on my open blog, then everyone will know about it.
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