Never Easy

I think it's really not an easy thing to work with someone that you are close with at times. You will feel odd or bad if you ain't too happy with the things around. If you make lots of noise, it may makes things worst. Worst, you might ruin your friendship. If you say nothing and keep it in your heart, I think you will suffer yourself.

Today I meet with my old coursemates. Most of them are working, the rest still taking Master. Those who are working, all working in related fields. Either working as MLT in Tropicana Hospital, earning RM22oo basic with OT claims up to RM500~RM700 per month, or working in insurance related company, earning RM2500++ including OT.

Me, myself now working in a completely out of my field kinda job. Even the staff in my team thinks that this job ain't so suitable for me. I should be in those medically related job as they mentioned. I'm confused myself too. Did I make a wrong decision to join in from a completely different field? I'm not those sales oriented and those self driven oriented kind of people.

If I really can't take the pressure I gain working in the company, I think I will be leaving and probably search for insurance related job again. At least I know the job better that dealing with sales. Well, it's not like I hate sales job so much, just that I don't know will I able to cope and enjoy this job or not. I don't want to make it as I will be hating it or the end of the day I find it not suitable for myself.

Actually I still can't see the future advancement I can achieve in the organization till now. It's a very small organization to me if I have to compare to my previous company. Well, I can't compare. Anyway, somehow I feel like things that I was told and I imagine before I join and after I join seems different. It's not as beautiful as I can imagine. Things can be nasty. Maybe not now, but I don't have good feeling.

Somehow my intuition tells me that it maybe something so wrong might just happen. I really don't know what I should do and what I could do. I just felt that I'm so useless and my boss might be not happy seeing me always talk bad about his company. I fell so stress up.