Love is a miracle thing. However for me, it always seems to play a fool with me. Maybe I am desperate for it. It's so miracle that I don't wanna miss it nor let it loose from my hand but I always cannot get full grip on it. It's always slipped away from my very own hand. Just hope that luck is standing by my side for this. Seems to be funny. Those person that I have feelings on, always unable to be with me. Either they have boyfriend themselves, or they into open relationship, or some other factors preventing them to be together with me, or worst - they into one night stand (ONS).
Recently, I created this blog just to write up about my love life and things happening to me that I think I can't share it openly to people. I love someone that I don't have much future with him. He is leaving the country to UK for study. It will be almost half a year at least that I can't see him, touch him and feel him around me. Even though he is in Malaysia, we also hardly see each other because he is staying in Johor while I'm staying in Kuala Lumpur. Now, he is leaving soon, separating us apart, making him don't wanna start up a relationship with me. It's like you know he is a nice guy that you can find and you know that he likes you too. However, you can never think so much about getting along with him at the moment. Future? Then I don't know.
If I wanna wait for him, I also cannot wait for him forever. He did mentioned before of staying there to work for a period of time to save some money to pay back his education loans. Earning there of course better than here as the currency the is more than 5 times than Malaysia Ringgit. But if he really do stay back, then I don't think I can stand it waiting him just like that. I need someone to take care of me too. I'm not a very strong person. In this gay world or people like us (PLU) world, I'm a bottom. Kinda loves attention and loves just like a typical Arian (Aries).
Anyway, that guy I mentioned is Andy Lau Wee Jian. He is not to say handsome but then he really a nice guy. Haha. He shave his head because he don't have much hair and don't wanna people look at him and felt his baldness. That's kinda smart way of him. But then he treat me kinda nice. Kinda pampered me, with not much ego. Much more better than Noel, although he is good in words.
Andy came over to KL on 8th of May, 2009 to meet me. I drove to Sri Petaling LRT station to pick him up and we went to One Utama, Damansara for lunch and movie. I remember we ordered the Whooper Jr. from Burger Kings. The set come with 2 burgers. We ate so full that time before proceed to cineplex. Watching $311.0u7 (Sell Out), a Malaysian comedy. Well, the movie is just below average, but the feeling with him was more than I can say. After the movie, I drove home and rest awhile before going for dinner at night.
At home, we did hug and kiss. It was amazing. I felt I was being loved again. The feeling is so strong that I too carried away before I even realized that I fall in love with him. He too likes me. Ended up, we cuddling each other, and kissing most of the time before kicked off to some where near for dinner. Our dinner just a simple hooked up at hawker stalls at Mega Mendung. That night, we did something beyond friends will do. U know yourself what it is. Maybe I have that need somehow also but then I didn't regret about it.
The next day, he was about to leave KL back to Kluang, Johor. Before he go, we went to Win Soon Restaurant, famous for fish head noodles to have our brunch. Then, we went to PC shop and he get me a mic so that I can chat with him online using MSN audio chat. That short 2 days, the lunch, movie, cake and mic were paid by him. So gentleman of him. And for now, we just keep contact each other by audio chat. I think I'm going to Kluang to meet him before he is about to go UK since he can't make it to KL early for me due to some reasons. Till then only I can update more about it.
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