Long Distance & Lack of Attention

I personally feel that long distance for a relationship is definitely a bad thing to have. It is not just the feeling of missing someone is bad enough, but worst is when that person have no time to pay enough attention to you.

I believe everyone is seeking some level of attention from others. Some seek it from relationship, some from family, some in career and some in other mean of connection with other people or groups.

What if your partner doesn't seems seeking attention from you that much? They probably love to seek it from others maybe due to their personality, they love people's recognition. That's where you will feel that you have very little out of them and yet they will fell that they given you everything he can give.

This lack of balance relationship is what really causing lots of heartache, loneliness and misunderstanding due to wild guessing. Indeed it's not healthy. But there is very little we can do to improve the condition if only one party find it as an issue rather than related to both parties.

It's like what is happening in my own relationship. My boyfriend is currently at the east coast of country for a week. That's about a thousand kilometres away from where I am. I've not seen him for 4 days, and he don't have the time to talk to me.

When I contact him, he replied but lack of communication. He just answer but having very little conversation with me. I understand he is occupied with his mission, but I need him to spare some time for me. I can't be the one that most of the time trying to talk and he rarely started up a conversation.

It's sad that most of the time he is not around me, he will start a conversation requesting me to assist him on work issues. He also emphasis why am I not going for church event when I didn't. I always ask myself why can't he asks me do I want to go for something than just asking me why I'm not in it?

Well, there is always something only God will know and I can't control about it. I don't want him to be unhappy because of me. I guess I'll just have to bear this kind of emotion turbulence all the time. Just have to adapt to it and pray hard for a change.