Different Mindset

I found that my boyfriend and I have very different mindset. Well, it's good too have different opinion but collectively when we have quite a lot of different opinions, it's kinda chaotic. Both in term of how we look at things around our relationship.

For example, he never belief in nor I agree in gay marriage. It's technically not a Christian thing to him. For me, I'm not sure. I'm not a very mature Christian myself. But as far as I know, marriage is suppose to be holy union of two souls, and it's a blessing from God.

If God created marriage to unite two souls, why people purposely link it to only a guy and a girl? Because of God wants us to multiply? Don't you think multiply can be in many other context? Like love, like becoming a role model, becoming a great leader, etc.

For this point of view, I know my future with him is just so much I can dream of. This is the furthest I can imagine our love can grow. How about commitment? Just word of mouth as the basis of our love perhaps. There will be no holy union between us. Although I don't think of it so much, but it does bother me when he mentions that he is not supporting gay marriage.

Our than this, I'm also pretty annoyed that he doesn't really discuss things with me. Maybe the relationship getting old, I'm beginning to stuck into his life and revolve around him. I'll love to plan my time with him. But there is some disappointment time to time.

Lately, he signed up for the church mission trip to Sarawak for a week. I only know he is interested to join mission trip, but I only know that he confirmed everything today and he is leaving next Monday. It's gonna be a whole week without him around.

I begin to wonder on that spot, did he discuss this with me? Did he consider my feeling when I'm the last to know about this saying that I'm also a close person to him. Unless he doesn't consider or perhaps that is him, usually forget to consider my feeling on what he is about to do.