I've been asking myself lately this question. Can I cope with sales job? Will I like it or go on with it? It's really something that's bothering me lately. It's not like others influencing me or I'm hating someone in my organisation but more on the job's nature. What I'm really comfortable working as or doing for living?
Douglas has his point too. What he told me few weeks ago is true. Ones principal can't generates money for living. But money can buy happiness or mental comfort? Somehow I'm not that excited about the job I'm in. I'm not sure myself is due to the job nature, people around me or perhaps the stress I'm having.
I'm upset with the working condition I'm in. Maybe I'm a bit exaggerate my feeling about the working condition I'm in. Not exactly or solely on the whole working environment, but more on every aspect that I'm experiencing in this company. I would say more on the colleague relationship. I do feel that most people favours other department or people. It's natural thing. But somehow just it feels not that right.
Indeed I do think Douglas favours me a bit, but at work, I think that is not the case. I think I'm the most frequent person that got the stress, scolding (perhaps not thay harsh all the time but it can be quite sarcastic in most of the time) and what's not, that frustration he has. Actually seeing him stress out, I'm really upset. But I can't help him much.
His stress mainly from his dad. The worst thing is he always transfer the negativity energy to us all. Maybe I'm the most useless staff in the department because I think he backs me up in front of his dad (which wht he told me), that's all I know. But JY, she seems to has all the backing from him. Like what he mentioned that day, she has better portfolio than me.
I'm considering maybe I should look for some other job before I'm getting to the extent where the company thinks that I'm a liability. I join the company in the first place because he told me that I'm not involved in sales. I'll be more on the research, promotion, marketing side of the products. I thought I could learn something. Well I did learn a lot but it really seems diviate a lot from the initial what I'm expecting.
Well, life still have to goes on and I'll need a job that able to make me survive and pay off all my loans. Im confused with the situation I'm in because I've no idea where will I get to the end. I'm just hoping everything will go smoothly so that my dream to have a small running business of my own can fulfilled. A good concept café is all I want. Adequate business, stable life, good health and wealth, and stable relationship is what I'm looking to.
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