Tuesday was Valentine's Day. It suppose to be a romantic and sweet day that you celebrate it with your partner or the one you ever loved. How did I celebrate it? I don't think it's consider a celebration because it doesn't seems to be a planned celebration.
How do I feel? I feel lonely of course. Suppose to be dating with Dickson, who are a guy that I'm seeing now, dating about, but he is involved in an accident at his hometown, so he can't make it back here. Ironically, I don't feel much disappointment. Maybe I don't have much feeling with him yet because I do somehow feel that there is something missing between us.
Well, Douglas did have a dinner with me that night. Somehow, it's not as sweet as last year even though that time he still has his boyfriend all to himself. Maybe it just too simple, I felt somehow lack of some surprises or something. Anyway, he has no obligation to do anything sweet for me also. If not because Dickson can't make it, he wouldn't even dine with me that day.
Anyway, this year Valentine's Day is just another day for me as there was nothing really sweet or any great surprises. Perhaps that's how it will be for the following years. Dickson is still a distance away to really win my heart away. I'm open up to date with other people rather to be bind tight with someone I don't or guarantee match with me.
Tonight, I'm going to hang out with Jimmy. Let's see what is it all about. Well, no more great hopes and come great disappointment. Just another dinner date that's it. Will carry on everything from friendship. I think maybe I'm just too picky or I can't find someone that I can truly lay my love on. I hope that person will soon appear in my life.
Lord, I hope you can grant this little wish of mine. Amen.
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