The whole lyric of the song really makes me feel really sad. After so long, who will remember who first said he'll love me forever? I do remember. It's him. But does that really matter to me now or is that even true to date? It's really a sentence that leave a deep scar on my heart.
The thing is that I think I never regret my choice of leaving him and walk our separate ways. Who said we will walk this journey together till the end? I did. But I can't afford to walk this journey with him because he hurts me so deep. We really have two contradicting dreams.
The person I mentioned is Brian C. Well, he is the past. I should move on and I did. Maybe I'm still sentimental kind of guy. I do still recall things that happened between him and me. I don't know why, perhaps he hurts me too deep to forget about it. But I do recall the sweet moment we had before too. Funny.
But, this song indirectly also reflects a lot of things in my life. Lots of people said that they love me, so and so. However, how many of them are truly love me? I'm wondering that. Looking for someone that I can be with and walk this journey to the end together is the hardest thing I found to be in gay's life.
Till this very moment, I'm still struggling with who is the one that will love me and I love him back the way we want it to be. Hope this person will show up himself and be my angel to walk through this fragile yet short life we have.
Lord, I pray that this greedy wish of mine can be fulfilled. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
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