Confused

After yesterday, I know there is no point to wait for Andy anymore. I think he have his life there and enjoy it there. I don't think I have anymore chances to be with him. Maybe the saying that the person you be with may not be the one that you truly love. So this saying may be right. As the person I love most now also unable to be with me and the future with him seems frail. I felt like I have nothing left. Even now, there are a few guys seems showing affection on me, but then mostly also didn't seems to have the potential to be some one that can win my heart yet. Maybe I need time to heal my wound yet to forget a person. Those admirers of mine also not to say that good for me also I guess. Maybe it's my problem. I guess I might ended up alone in my life.

Just these few days only, I'm so confused again. Like my previous blog, I mentioned about Jasson but then knowing that there is nothing between us. He have his boyfriend, so I need not to worry much as he will not come for me. He just have an affection to me only.

Well, today, I guess Jetky shows some affection to me also. Today he treats me for Sushi King. Then somehow he says things like I'm his eldest lover, or like ask me to be his wife so that he can supp me a credit card. LOL. But seriously, I have no feeling on him. He is a bit chubby, somehow ego, and I don't think I'll be having a nice relationship with him. Then Saram chat with me in MSN, he have feeling for me. *Sigh* I have no idea what to say to him. I didn't know how to reject him but then I didn't make him think that he have chances already. Let time prove that we won't work out. He just not my type, as in skin colour. Not racist but preferences.

Then a guy from Fridae.com, John, which from Singapore, 38 years old guy seems showing affection to me also. He is coming to KL this Friday. He asked me to meet him up and show him around KL. I think I'm okay with the touring around but then not more than that. I just don't take a guy, more than 35 years old as boyfriend. Furthermore I know nothing about him, and the distance is a biggest problem. I don't want to get hurt anymore. Andy is the biggest lesson I had, distance separating us apart and he chooses to let me go. Well, it's still hurt but then hopefully it heal through time.