Loneliness

Lately, I blog more in this blog then my pioneer blog as I have so much love life things to blog then normal things to blog about. Today, loneliness is kinda killing me. Practically doing nothing after my dinner. I mean after my dinner, I went up to my room and play Cabal Online to kill time. I don't wanna fight for the TV with my mum and sister. So better stay in my room do other thing.

After awhile, I felt bored with the game. You know those online RPG game, just killing those monster to level up your character. After some time, you also feel bored right? So I ended up listening to songs and chatting with friend. But then looking back at the MSN list, there ain't much people I can really chat with. Most not really close already.

I saw my high school friends, like Ching Fui, Wei Jian, etc. but then I don't know what to chat with them as I'm emotional now. I can't chat with them those PLU stuff. Same goes to my UTAR friend. Only 3 of them online. Also can't chat this PLU stuff with them. Cut down all of those, left those PLU friends. However, most also busy. Only Afiq is chatting with me. Andy also less respond to me. We like nothing much to chat also. Maybe he is busy with him life there. I also can't always chat with Afiq. Kinda run out of topic with him already.

Andrew and John is available but then I don't have topic to chat with them. Andrew is watching his drama, while John is that Singapore uncle that wanna dates me earlier on. I don't wanna face those uncertainty. Steven is away. William, Derek and Yew Chai, all having their status as busy. Although Derek did reply me, but then he is busy with him work as he is having his own business, I can't be there chatting with him as I'm feeling as if I'm disturbing him. Don't wanna make him felt that I'm annoying.

Anyway, I think previously I have wrong signal on Terry. I don't think he is that interested in me. As yesterday, he did MSN with me, and we did went to Cineleisure for movie as he ask me to accompany him. Maybe after the date, he saws me so faint hearted watching that Blood: The Last Vampire. Today, he didn't reply my sms where I thought of asking him for a walk at the night market around my area. I haven't really walk around the night marker in my area for so long. But then he didn't reply me all my sms also. I did called him to ask, and he reply me that he is tired and he is eating his dinner already. So I better ignore him for now. Don't wanna make him think that as I'm so interested with him and so annoying. I just hope a friendship only.

If only things get better then I can think about further the relationship. However, like my previous post, I think I'm gonna be single for some time more. I don't think got people really interest with me except those uncles which there is no chance that I can take it.