Single for long long time

I guess I'm going to be single for long long time. Finally I managed to reject that Indian guy that waiting for me. I think we can still be friend. But I don't wanna care what it will be turn up to. I'm still confuse with myself what I really want. Maybe this Indian guy is a wake up call for myself to reconsider what I really want for myself.

Guess right now, I'll just free myself. Get myself knowing more people, new people but then not forcing into it. I'll just let people know me as in let them email me, or add me in MSN first before proceed to any friendship or what-so-ever.

I'm tired of looking new people to date, or potential so-called boyfriend. Because most of the time, those I fall into it, it doesn't blossom as I wanted to be. Maybe loving someone that love you more than you love him is better. Fate will guide us to where we suppose to be.

If I'm suppose to be with him, surely till that time, no matter what, I'll be with him finally too. So I let the time and fate guide me through.