Cross Road Again...

I'm in cross road again. I know life should go on but I'm not sure I'm ready for it already or not. One road is that I'll just wait for the person I'm so sure that I love him but then the outcome of this choice might be devastating. I might get hurt badly if the thing that I hoped so long didn't blossom the way I wanted to be.

Another road is to go with the flow. Whoever that comes into my life, I just give it a try if I think it's not so bad to give it a chance. However, I felt somehow guilty to the person I very most like about. But then I think if the person I give chance really work the way it is, then this person that I waited for or the first road I mentioned will be a history in my story.

Recently, I rejected the Indian guy, Saran, so I guess there is no more obvious admirer around. Those indirect ones, (those that I think they have hint me some way or sent me signal of somehow) I think got a few. Jetky, Noel, and Terry are in the list.

Well, Jetky is my buddy since I'm still 20. We always been buddy and I prefer the way it is. I don't hope to change it. You know, best friend is harder to lose. I don't think we match in term of relationship, so I better don't start, preventing lost of friendship later. Recently, I think he hints me somehow by asking me when I wanna be his darling or when I wanna marry him. LOL.

Noel, he is just like my elder brother. Well, he is nice, always treating me for food just like Jetky. However, I really don't have feeling for him. Maybe I mind his appearance. He is half bald, with a big belly, look like almost 40 where he is still 33. I think I'll just remain the friendship with him that's alright.

Lastly, Terry, a guy that I know recently from Axcest. He send me mail there asking me to add him in MSN. Chatted with him somehow, feeling that he is kinda nice also. But then I'm not so sure or really know much about him still. I might need more time to evaluate this person. So details of him will be, he is 26, from Penang but working in Damansara, and life near SS2. I think he hints me somehow as well but then I'm not sure whether I got the wrong signal or not. Because he is not those very man, as in he is very gentleman but then not soft like me. So I'm not sure also. Even he likes me, I also don't know should I give it a try again or not.