Financial Crisis

This month, thanks to my godfather, I'm having such an unpredictable financial crisis. I'm thinking how am I going to forge out RM1000.00 just like that without affecting the rest on the days ahead of me. After forging out the sum, and with addition to the sum that I'll be borrowing from my aunt, it enough to pay for my car fixation only. How about me getting the rest taken care off?

I was thinking to buy myself a pair of slack for work purpose, some undies since I'm lacking of it, and some other stuff this mega sale. I think I'll not able to get any of it. I felt like everything is out of place of all the plans I've set for myself this month thanks to that fella.

Even though my salary is coming out soon, but then I'll have to use it to pay off my car road tax and insurances. It simply means that I'll have no money to spent for the month of August, October and November.

I think my final resort will be fasting for that 3 months. I'm terribly stress up right now. Wanted to cry out loud. Wanted someone to hug me tight and just let me cry. I'm bleeding in and out. Inside of the pain and stress I'll be going through this period and out for the money that I'll bleed out.

Now, I don't know whether I can afford to go for Bryan's farewell and Rain's birthday celebration. I'm worried that I wouldn't have enough cash to maintain myself for next coming month. I'll need to find a way to get more money in order to pay back my aunt and to take care of my loans such as car loan, study loans, insurances, fitness first, etc.

I'm dying inside now. No strength to think about it anymore. Headache hitting back such early tuis morning. I think it's no a good sign anymore. Feel like crap now. Hopefully I can control my emotion today and not shed my tears. Try to act cool, Terence..