Lately, too many stuff happening around me. Many involve with emotional issues. I doubt if there are more to come and will I able to cope with all that. As I can see, I'm a very well emotional guy and I'm the people kind of guy (just like what my senior said when she gave us a piece of advise during the meeting), I know I will get affected definitely.
Yesterday, my colleague, Li Teng just left our company. After the lunch, we had a meeting and we were announced that my senior, who is the one that I am tag to since I join this company is leaving for a better offer in another company. I do get the shock of her leaving so soon and yet so short notice. Well, that company is willing to pay to get her to work with them as soon as possible. I'm happy for her having a better opportunity and I do think that we all will definitely miss her. I just didn't expect she will be leaving before me even thought I do felt that she is leaving too.
Soon, after my senior, Ruth is gone, Nesa will be going off 2 days before I'm leaving my company. There will be new blood coming into our company soon. I heard from my manager, there will be 3 new recruits. However, thinking of the freshies, they will have no authority to approve any amount of claims in the early 2 months or so. It will be really hectic to the rest of us (of probably a month for me since I'm leaving for good too soon).
I can't imagine our company, or perhaps just my team right now can have so much changes in just a week time. Of course if you take a look in this past few months, there are many changes. However, the changes for now is much more emotional, more intense for me. All I can think of right now is to stay focus for this one month and one week before I start to settle myself into new company effectively on July. Lord, please give me strength to keep on moving forward.
Well, saying that my feeling is like inside the washing machine is really true. I mean try to look at it, from the day I join this company, after 3 months, my course mate who works with me in the same team and company is leaving the company. Then, my colleague, Sathya leaves, followed by Pei Sim, Wei Qi, Ik Meng, Shall and Li Teng. Soon, my senior Ruth is leaving too. emotional wise, some because really best friends and makes you feel so bad to leave.
Although thinking that in the new company I can see him more, but I doubt so it will be the way. He might not be in the office at times or I will be assigned to some location, etc. So working in the new company might not really gain me more opportunity to see him too. I worry that it will get even less if the workload in his company is mountain high for me to handle. I do many times worry about it and doubt my own ability to really perform in sales industry.
That's so much about work life. Personally, I think doesn't makes me better. This weekend and even next weekends including the weekday next week, he will not be in KL. I will be pretty lonely this one week plus. I have no idea what to do to occupy my time. For today instead, I did hang out with my colleagues at Pavilion's to have a lunch with my senior, treating her for all her help and guidance throughout working in my company.
Tomorrow, I will be going for ballroom dancing as usual in the morning. However, from noon onwards, I might be bored to death. I did ask Charles for movie but I think he can't make it. I can't think of much other friends to hang out with. Weekday will be normal for me, just go to work and back to to rest. Just unable to see him.
The upcoming weekend will be the worst one. Friday will be Wesak Day, and it's a public holiday. So I will be having 3 rest days. What should I be doing? Home alone again? On Saturday might not be that worst as I need to fetch my mother and sister to visit my grandma. Probably dine with them on that day. What concern me are Friday and Sunday. There ain't much I can do. I think till then I might have something to be busy with.
All I know is that when he is not around, it's really hard for me. My life is so dead without him. I'm missing him now. I wonder what is he doing there? At this late hour, is he shopping around or sight seeing? However, I try not to think so much on that. I don't want to get jealous and feeling bad about it. I just hope that he enjoys his trip.
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