It's been almost a year I didn't write anything here. I try not to post anymore stuff in this blog because I thought that I'm always pouring negative issues here, and not the positive ones. I think I'll have to post more here, especially the positive ones.
However, today I've to start blogging back with my usual, the negative one first. I know it's sound really sad to start the first blog of the year with something that negative but I don't know who to pour out so much at this moment in time.
My boyfriend and I were planning to start up a company doing coffee. Well, to cut the story short, I'm just going to talk about what bothers me today. He plans to hired a guy to help him out temporary with his work loads especially for starting this business since I've a full time job. He himself also don't have the time, and he also need someone to help him out a little bit for his political agenda.
The issue comes when the guy, Alex, whom he is planning to hire is a gay guy too. He is just in his early 20's kinda guy, which does make me feel a little but uncomfortable. But what makes me uneasy today is that he keeps on stepping me down in front of that guy, Alex. It's like he keeps on saying I've a bad sense of fashion taste, lousy accent, emotional, etc.
Then treating this guy extremely good, which I always find him treating other well better than people that really close to him. He is hiring this guy, yet wanna provide him with free accommodation. Temporary letting him staying over at his place, or the extra apartment. I also haven't gotten that privilege before. But the worst is that he said that he can drive his car to work.
In my days I'm working for him previously, I don't even get that when my car is in the workshop for a month. I'm his boyfriend some more. I was really speechless and upset, but I don't want to raise it to him in front of his friend. I take all of it at one go. I keep all this to myself and keep quite about it. Not going to complain nor say anything about it. Tired to justify myself.
If he thinks that's nice and fair to me, and what he is saying and doing are a way that he shows his love, then let it be his way. I'm not going to argue with him as I'm tired to do so. I'll never win over an argument with him. I'm just going to use the second stage of tolerance, to ignore him when I'm pissed.
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