It's freaking lonely this year's birthday of mine. Till now, I just realised that I only got 1 Facebook wall wish from a dance-mate. That's it. I thought Facebook is great. Everyone should reminded on who so and so's birthday. But I get none. Friend wishes also nobody except Douglas just whatsapp me.
Actually even that, probably I reminded him on it. Seriously, I think he already to busy to remember my birthday. I don't wanna make a fuss about it. It's not like he has to remember it or do anything about it. Even my best friend don't do anything about it yet. What can I say? Okay, I did get some wishes at church just now. That's also partly I said it out since they ask me how is my week.
So there is no SMS, no whatsapp (except from Douglas), no Facebook wall (except one), no calls, nothing till this very moment people wish me happy birthday in any way. Don't even mention about celebrating it. So this year, it's my f*cking lonely year ever. It's really painful to even write this post here.
Every word I wrote here is accompanied by my tear of loneliness and unexplainable emotional disaster that occurring inside me. Life of a single guy - dull and painful. That's for me. How come I can't be like somebody else that have a decent relationship and settle down? Am I that bad and not attractive at all as a boyfriend?
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