Pavilion Outing

It's the second visit to Pavilion with Doug, and it is the first visit this year with him. We seldom shop around at Pavilion as it's kind of far from my place and the parking will kill me. So we usually hang out at the Curve instead.

Yesterday, it something new. I drove to Pavilion just to meet him up and we had lunch together. We took Lebanese food, which it's my first time and I kind of loving it. No wonder he told me that the bread is addictive. I am still thinking of the bread. It's really nice.

He whole dating session with him was great and I love the feeling walking with him. Although when he getting Valentine gift for his boyfriend makes me felt uneasy, probably I'm envy or jealous. I do not even know why I feel that way.

Anyway, he promised me that he will surprise me with a Valentine gift after CNY. I'm thrill for that day. However, I think I will love most if I will be able to spent a day or two with him personally, especially the 2 days he told me that he will be free at home provided that his boyfriend not coming. Somehow is makes me to have evil thought, hoping I will have this chance to accompany him.

This few days, he already got me some CNY stuff like new shoes and socks. I'm really grateful for it as I'm kind of broke lately, and he really helps me a lot. I do believe that he loves me, just that he happens to love his boyfriend too, a lot more. Nobody is perfect. Since that I have no idea why I rather choose to be with him, even in this tough situation over El, which seems simpler. I will need to prepare myself for the outcome of it.

Maybe this is fate. God might be testing my patient and faith of me to Him. Only time will tells more. Lord, thanks for everything you put me through. All I can hope from you is lending your hand to help out Doug, hope that everything goes on smoothly and fine for him. Amen ^^